Saturday, December 31, 2005

The Year in Review

It has come to the final day of 2005. And I must say that overall, this has been a wonderful year for me. It has been a year of discovery, joy and laughter. And I hope 2006 will be all the better. Insya-Allah.

I have come to appreciate my family more, and make time to be with them despite my busy life. Really love my nieces and get along better with my bro and sis now. Can afford to spoil Abah a little more, and starting to get much closer to my relatives in KL and Singapore. At some point, you stop being someone's little girl and start to emerge as an individual. I find myself wishing I could share this wonderful family with someone... Honestly, I do.

Owning a home means you don't pay rent, but maintenance is a headache sometimes. There are legal stuff that needs to be taken care of, as well as problems that need to be fixed. Unfortunately, that means money, and I'm the landlord... Used to want an apartment, but have become attached to my house now, leaky roof and all. It's a little too big for 2 people, am trying to rent out 3rd bedroom. Would be a great place for kids, if only I had some. Trying not to dwell on that too much though. My pets can be enough of a handful, at times. Had to lose Jack, but Pseudo is a wonderful substitute. Hope to share the house with a significant other, if anyone is willing to suffer the ancient abode, that is!

Love & Life
OK, I didn't score very high on the love bit, but life was extremely satisfying.

Being in Tekad Selangor was probably the best thing that ever happened to me. The Tekadmons are a wonderful bunch, especially the D3katians, Ilham team, UTP Roadshow gang, beach cleanup team and Teratak team who have been a constant source of joy and inspiration. And we welcome Noreen to the fold, as well as many others. You know who you are, and thank you for enriching my life. (I dare not list everyone out, I might just miss a few names and spoil the joy.)

I have grown closer to a few of my old friends - namely Chris, Loretta, Nisha, Yumiko & Santiago. And also to a few MNS branch & bird group committee members. I have rather drifted away from my WWF pals, but closer to a few canoe team members. Esp P, who has been sweet enough to accompany me every so often. Thanks for being such a sport, dear. You're good company :-)

It was great when Teck Wyn offered me a contract in December, after freelancing for almost half a year. RESCU was something like a holiday - it's called the "Seven Day Weekend". The concept of letting people work wherever and whenever they did best is practiced in Semco, I really enjoyed the freedom. Unfortunately, contract was ending in January, but miraculously got a job offer by mid- November, so I negotiated for early release. Have to work fast in the current economic situation, can't afford to be jobless now!! CETDEM is boot camp in comparison; I had to re-learn about discipline. No joke, I even dreamt of being in boot camp last night!! But all in all, boss has heart in the right place, and it fits into my plans, so won't complain overly much. Am still associated with RESCU, and any jobs I do would mean extra $$, which is sorely needed since I am an independent adult with bills to pay.

Hopes for the New Year
I'm looking forward to a successful year at work, hope I manage to fulfil my obligations to the organisation; the environmental world is too small to screw up in... Hope to pay off most of my pressing loans and make enough money on the side to pay for a few luxuries.

I hope the MNS dinner I'm organising would be a success, and I leave a good impression behind when I resign mid year. Hoping that people would be more environmentally conscious, reduce waste and leave the world a better place for our children.

Hoping to have more fun with the Tekad gang, and Tekad Pahang goes on as planned. Wishing good things to the TKK boys and the TKK team. Ditto to the Ilham boys and team.

Last but not least, i hope each and every one of us finds what we are looking for, be it love, wealth or success.

Happy New Year, everyone!!

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

I miss my lappie...

Well, technically I shouldn't. It's being fixed, and hopefully it'll come back working properly (at last). But I have a dinner to organise, and there are some articles I need to read, and contacts that I don't have in sister's computer. Add trying to stay on boss' good side by not making personal calls during office hours and using dialup on sister's old PC with a cranky mouse... I'm tired!! It's so difficult to be good. Wonder how everyone else does it. Sigh. Me spoilt brat. Sabar ajelah.


Had a very social weekend and today vegetated at home.

Worked Saturday, went home to prepare whatever, then picked up Sali and went over to Aizan's for Tekad BBQ. P also came over and met us there. Simply said, it was great fun! There was plenty of good food and great company. Even Yuz came over all the way from Kerteh with his lovely tunang Noreen. The tukar2 hadiah session after dinner was fun and it was nice to meet some of the Tekad Perak gang. The "mistletoe" was unfortunately underutilized. Ziyad was sitting under it the whole time and still nothing happened... No further comment. Hazami stopped by for a bit and was made to "sing for his supper" by singing the Birthday song for Eyeda as well as serving the cake. Too bad it wasn't Anuar Zain, eh Eyeda? ;-D As usual, we played games afterwards; the crazier, the better. The most noise was made by those playing Uno Stacko and Azam was probably the most "bullied" contestant. But he rose to the occasion and successfully met the challenges until he "kantul" at the last round. Heh heh. Good try, bro. Tabik spring... It seemed to me Chaain't and Naz kena belasah by the wee kids playing Boggle. Betul ke, Naz? I played one round of Pictionary before calling it a night. Some people spent all the time dissecting various issues at the dining table. Oh well, as long as you enjoyed yourself... Sayang most D3Katians couldn't make it. Hope they can come to my place on Raya Haji. Mark the date, peeps. Would love to see everyone there.

Sunday = Christmas Day. First, sent lappie over to Ipol to fix. Then went to cousin's daughter's wedding in Sg Penchala. On to Cindy & Teck Wyn's in Ampang. And finally to Steven & Salmiah's in Kota Kemuning. Was impressed by wedding tent decor, food and hantaran. Coming from moi, who never bothered about such nonsense, means its REALLY good. Or just to my taste. Maybe. In any case, Fiza got interested when I showed her the photos. Ni kena nego for percent from my cousin nih... :D Cindy's place was nice, with a view of the forest. We managed to do some birdwatching and chatted quite a bit before I really had to leave. The party at Steven's was unfortunately very quiet, unlike the previous years. I fell asleep in the midst of "Madagascar". Just as we were leaving, the car alarm went off and I had difficulty switching it off... Darn. Have to do something about the cranky remote.

Today, feeling spent, just lazed around the house doing bits of chores here and there. Had to force myself even to go grocery shopping. Found that Ipol & Chey's Mom kena denggi and had to be hospitalised. Hope she gets well soon. Unfortunately, that also meant that my lappie is stuck with Ipol until he could find time to finish the work la. Hope it's not too much trouble for him with his Mom sick and all that... And hope I won't need any files I didn't copy to my thumbdrive as well. Still need to organise a few MNS things. Shoot. By mid next year - no more of these nonsense. Will stay home and organise my own life instead. Cheers, peeps. See you all again soon!!

Friday, December 23, 2005

Below The Surface

I’m not normally a clock watcher, but today seems to be interminably LONG!!! Urgh. Everything annoys me, boss is also grumpy... I seem to be surrounded by prickly, domineering men at work, and I have no choice but to play nice with them. Shoot. Imagine me, playing the docile female, saying things in a saccharine sweet voice when I really feel like strangling the guys for being so prickly over nothing.

Boss seems to think that no one deserves to have a life during office hours. It’s ridiculous the way I have to run outside to discreetly pick up a call. Even the few meagre important calls that I accept during office hours are commented as “being on the phone a lot”. It’s not as if I chat with my (yet non-existent) boyfriend for hours on end, totally ignoring my work. Ergh... Trust people a little la. To cope, I have learnt to say “Yes,Sir.” in a meek voice while mentally rolling my eyes and singing “Lalala….” Sabaaaaarrrr ajelah… :-p

But then, he is a genuinely nice guy really, underneath the gruff demeanor. Don't expect charm from this old man. What you see is what you get :-D Since I DO like the job, and in order to keep it, I have to berlakon a bit la. Am trying hard to get along with project partner, even if sometimes I feel like ayam trying to carry on a conversation with itik. Find that treating him like Mr Big helps smooth things along.

Eeps, imagine if my "Sweet and Gentle" act becomes permanent... Would it help me snag a guy? Maybe I should consider changing before its too late...

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Miracles DO Happen...

Small problems are sometimes the most annoying.

The hose in my loo was dripping continuously. No amount of plumbing tape could stem the flow. A small bucket was soon filled to the brim. Closer inspection found that the connection to the spray head had cracked. Great. It's not so much the amount of water which was wasted, the price of the precious commodity is negligible. But the constant flow was causing my tiles to yellow at an alarming rate. It's hard enough to keep the house presentable without these things causing further damage...

Spent time after lunch browsing the hardware store nearby to find a solution. Unfortunately, connections are not sold separately. I would need to buy whole sets to replace the faulty one. Trying to stay in control of my expenses, settled for a pack of washers as a stopgap measure until I could buy the new hose.

Back home, I tried adding a washer to the existing one. Surprise, surprise... the dripping completely stopped! I was so relieved. I didn't need to spend much money after all. A 33.33 cents washer fixed the problem. Hurray!!

So... wonder if there are any miracle solutions to MY problems... Sigh. If only there were... :-)

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

On the Contrary...

Sometimes I despair of ever clearing up my blasted list of things to do. Having too much to do and no energy to get it done is a sure fire way into the vicious cycle. You feel stressed from having so many things to do and feel even more stressed when nothing gets done because you're too tired thinking of the number of things that need to get done to actually get off your butt and do it. You with me so far?

So what can we do?

I found one solution. Once in a while, ignore the cardinal rule of "finish first, rest later". Simply because sometimes, you just can't finish in time to get any kind of rest. So rest first.

Now, don't do it all the time. Otherwise you'd never get anything done. But once in a while, just say, "Sod work" and make time for a breather. Take a soak in your tub, cuddle with a loved one, or just go to bed early. You'd be surprised how easy it is to carry on with the chores afterwards.

Don't believe me? Give it a try! :-)

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Oh Goodness Me!!

Had a full and enjoyable weekend, for once.

Friday night was spent lazing at home. For once, any work was banned. That was sooo good...

Saturday was spent lazing around too, since i failed to get ANY tickets to watch Harry Potter. We took the day off since we failed to observe the Selangor state holiday on Monday. At night went to aunt's place in Selayang to say hello to Singapore cousin. As usual, we went into gales of laughter with our silly ideas. It started with "smart" clothes-lines that would retract when it starts to rain, to awnings that can be controlled remotely by phone. It evolved to the "laundry folding machine"which would have everything programmed. It would know how to fold different items of clothing like underwear and shirts. It will also recognise what belonged to whom, so perhaps the clothes will need to be bar-coded... It goes on and on, I almost died laughing! :-) Would have loved to stay over, but had to start early the next morning.

Sunday was MNS (the Malaysian Nature Society) jumble sale day. Nak tak nak, had to come and help out. Darn, I am so stepping down from the committee next year. Tak larat. Spent the day enticing people to sign up for the Annual Dinner. In between, talked to friends and looked for bargains. In true MNS (Makan Non-Stop) fashion, I ate all day, and yet the food sellers still complained they didn't make much. Will not list them down here, too malufying. In the end, went home with free ice-cream and lots of stuff. Ice-cream would be great at our annual Christmas party at Steven's.

Was happy I got quite a lot of bargains at the sale. I bought:-
- 6 National Geographic mags for RM5
- 2 Travel mags at RM1 each
- A Delinsky novel for RM3
- A set of UNO stacko for RM5
- Bath salts for RM5
- A pack of fossils for Ah Tshen at RM1
- Thermometer thrown in for free

Went back and took a nap. Cleaners never turned up, so went back to sleep. Woke up and went over to Loretta's for Chris' earliated birthday party. His b'day is on Tuesday and next week is already Christmas, so we celebrated a bit earlier la. Watched bits of Monty Python "The Meaning of Life" and then left. I have no idea where the time went, but it's now midnight. Sigh. Work again tomorrow.

Good night, guys. Have a great week ahead :-)

Beware of What???

Why? Is it going to come alive and bite me??

Saturday, December 17, 2005

The Simple Pleasures in Life

Nisha once told me, "You're such a simple girl. It doesn't take much to make you happy, does it?"

I guess I'll have to agree.

A quiet night, a simple spread, and the company of a dear friend. Bliss. :-)

Thursday, December 15, 2005


I didn’t have time to blog, and once I did, I just can’t talk about what happened. I’m upset, and tired and disappointed. I need my weekend…

Saturday, December 10, 2005

I wanna stay home!!!

I can’t remember when I last worked so diligently. Shows what a frightfully spoilt brat I had become at RESCU. Not that I didn’t work, mind. But there was this flexibility thing, so if I was already late, I might as well just skip going to the office altogether and work at home. As long as the work gets done, anything goes. And it was positively AGES since I ever worked Saturdays. God, let Gurmit decide to grant us alternate Saturdays off, please.

Anyway, was busy the whole week and kind of wanted to let the hair down on Friday, (that’s tonight). Unfortunately, preferred social escort had to off far, far away for work, so I ended up in the company of a book. Won’t tell the title, but it makes me cry. Blush… So have to finish it tonight and bring something else for the weekend. Michael Connelly, perhaps. He’s a great writer. And no danger of turning on the waterworks with his detective mysteries.

I’ll be outstation for the weekend; would be stuck in some resort when I’d rather stay home and take care of the chores. Paid someone to cut the grass this afternoon and managed to trim the bougains while he was at it. Made sure he earned the money, so at least my garden is neat again. Perhaps will get cleaners in next week so I won’t scare off any prospective mothers-in-law with the rundown state of my home. Have a long list of things to fix too. I so wish I had a live in handyman…

Been wanting some company and Risq will be in KL the very weekend I’m anywhere near his place. But then, he needs to see his beloved princess, so I won’t grudge him the weekend away. Partner is planning to dump me at the Seremban commuter stn so he could go to some friend’s do on Sunday. Darn it. I need a good storybook to pass the time on the ride back to town. Maybe mi amigo will be free for a chapatti when I arrive in KL Sentral that afternoon. Otherwise, pray the girls would be available for a coffee Sunday night. Sigh. Since when did meeting up become such a big exercise in coordination?

Still need to pack for tomorrow and hang the clothes. Darn. Need to fix the dryer. Bit tricky drying clothes in the rainy season. Will put it on my TO DO list. More money to spend. Dad’s phone is dying too. Trying to decide if I should spoil old man and buy him a new one. Oh no! Forgot to check if MY money had been credited into account. Oh well, will get to it tomorrow. At least computer runs well now after reinstalling.

Good night, guys. Have a good weekend!!

Thursday, December 08, 2005


I know it’s just one of those days, but it’s so ANNOYING!!! As if PMS and a long day at work and meetings wasn’t bad enough, I tried to pay my car loan and ended up with more trouble.

Got some cash out from Maybank to pay up my bills; then went next door to pay at Ambank. For some reason, the CDM there refused to process my account, so I had to put the money back into my current account so that I can write a cheque for the amount. That was leceh enough, take the money out, then less than 30 minutes later, put it back in. As I was going thru the usual drill, suddenly the machine jams, spews up my card and shuts down. I was halfway through, there was no receipt and my precious RM700 was stuck in the CDM slot. Wonderful… Tried calling customer service and got endless recordings. Went off and got stuck in Uptown traffic pulak. Those blasted illegal hawkers are such a mega pain in the ass.

Got home and continued calling on the house phone. It took me almost two hours to get hold of a human customer service officer. By this time I had already decided the bank was a big fat bloody liar. I tried almost all the options offered and all I got was more and more recordings. “Our customer service officers are busy” my foot! They barely had ANY on duty. Not even for the lost ATM card option. Horrible! Even SBB has better customer service than this bloated ass of a bank. And the guy I spoke to tried to “assure” me my money was safe and all I had to do was call them in the morning. Hah! YOU try sleeping without making a report about the incident. I had to insist on him noting down my account number. I’m hardly a pessimist, but isn’t it normal to attempt some kind of crisis management before calling it a night?

All in all, I wasn’t so upset about the machine’s “mechanical failure” as to the bank’s failure to provide adequate customer service. Their CDMs fail on a regular basis, yet emergency services are almost non-existent. And I find their customer service to be ABYSMAL. Unhelpful and patronizing. Honestly, I like their Internet banking and most services, but their staff and CRM sucks big time.

Dammit. My money had better be in my account by morning…

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Temper, Temper...

Have been having problems everytime I connect to the internet - the whole damn taskbar freezes up; OE, Outlook and IE takes forever and ever before it breaks free and opens up. Can get to webpages by typing in address in folder address bars. Favourites pun jam jugak. It's so bloody annoying!! Please, anyone knows what I can do??? I'm thinking of replacing Norton with PCCillin, at the risk of worms and/ or trojans/ spyware/ viruses etc all the stupid things those buggers created infiltrating the computer again. Damn. I wish I had the ATEC back... I never had these problems with the AMD processor.

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Tired old hag...

This hag is tired with a capital T. Or maybe I'm just "unzoned"... Been eating all kinds of convenient rubbish lately. Too lazy to cook proper food...

Went down to BP on Sunday, did work on Monday, then drove back. Went to get modem from C and almost forgot to pay him. Went home and conked out. Had something at Renaissance today. Balik, rush, rush, pergi bird group meeting lak. Aiyoo...

Besok malam will be Comm meeting. My dinner updates tak buat lagi. My house is disgustingly ugly. I'm so going to hire cleaners to come on weekends!! I need to scan and fax over my IC and Abah's for Streamyx application. Trouble is, old man promised to stop by but never showed up!! Haiyaa... In any case, will be away during the weekend for outstation work pulak.

I can't believe I didn't find time to watch Chicken Little, or Corpse Bride or Harry Potter. Nak ajak kawan, semua orang dah tengok, agaknya. Susah sangat karang gi tengok sorang2 pulak. Hrmm... if I can find time to go lah... Oh well... I'll manage somehow, I guess.

Sunday, December 04, 2005

Had a great "girls' night out" with Aizan, Sali, Zura & Inas tonight. We went to Bora Ombak which was suggested by Aizan. It turned out to be a very nice restaurant with Balinese style gardens, huts and setting. Really, really nice ambience! Check it out, mates.

Just get yourself to Ampang Point, enter at De Palma, then turn right at the T junction. Take the next right further up and enter the Kompleks Sukan area. The reataurant shares space with the Kompleks Sukan, so the girls have the option to "cuci mata" at the adjoining futsal courts as well. *wink*wink*

Food was GOOD... We ate so much! Good things there weren't any males in attendance, otherwise would have really cramped our style :D Gluttony and ladylike demureness do not go well together... I'll probably have to either diet the next few days, or swim the excess off, but it was soo well worth it. Sigh. Very romantic setting too. Definitely will be a next time, insya-Allah.

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Getting Back On Track

Have been taking things REALLY easy these past few days. Darn. I'm getting old...

Am pretty well back to normal now, and pushing way too far off any sane old bed time again... Jeez, how the heck am I going to wake up before eight tomorrow?? Those little bits here and there do add up, don't they? Sigh. It's always like that. Just a little bit more. Just try to cross that off your list... And somehow the list keeps getting longer and longer... :-p I think I'll buy that ticket to Bangkok soon; I'm sorely in need of a holiday.

But first things first, I miss my cronies here in good ol' Kay Ell, so I hope will manage to throw a get together for Saturday. Stay tuned!!

P/S - Dear, have you found out if you'll be in town yet?

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Is he a good catch?

How would you consider a guy as “a good catch”?

Why do I ask? Well, not too long ago, after a typical gathering, I commented a certain Prince Charming would be a pretty good catch. (Not for me, but for our beloved TPMS *wink*).

The reason I said that was because I got the impression that he was a genuine kind of guy. Someone who works hard, means what he says, keeps his word, does things out of the kindness of his heart (as in ikhlas, not looking for kickbacks), etc. After all, he does a lot for a certain set of boys… It doesn’t hurt that he’s doing well financially, but that too comes from him being reliable and smart at work. And he handles babies like a pro. There’s something that is SOO sweet and endearing about guys carrying babes… Genuinely nice guys – now that’s what I’d call a good catch.

But the other person said, “Yeah, look at his new car.”

Err…. Oookaayyy... I like the new car. It’s nice. It’s good that he can afford it. But is THAT the major reason he’s considered a good catch? Does the car encapsulate all his good points? I shudder at the thought. What if he bought something he could ill afford, just to show off? Big debts would make him a bad catch in the long run. Show offs are pathetic. Poor character is definitely not a good quality.

Really, I didn’t even think of the car bit at the time. Being strongly Javanese influenced, possessions never made such a big impact on my family; authenticity does. I never heard of anyone comparing the size of our cars or our pay checks; just how good a person we are and how well we treat our families. And no one gives a hoot about titles and so called social status. Call us different, but that’s just one more reason for me to love my family even more. :-D

Why “Kantul”?

Maybe we need a dictionary for BM slanguage la... Ingat tak, Taichee~@, we were trying to figure out what “poyo” actually means? In this case, I used “kantul” to mean “tewas” or “to fail”; as in I tried to push myself too far and failed.

In any case, memang ada hikmahnya aku demam. Ya la, orang kalau tak pernah sakit, memang dah biasa hyper, susah nak faham orang yang selalu letih & slow. Kita kata dia tu pemalas, sedangkan dia sebenarnya macam tu due to her medical condition. Of course, we wish they would do something to overcome that problem la, but we should also try to be more understanding, right? So bila dah demam, nak bergerak pun sakit badan, nak bernafas sakit hidung, tidur pun tak boleh lena; kejap panas, pasang aircon dah sejuk pulak; semua serba salah. Baru lah kita nak faham yang sebenarnya kesihatan itu suatu rahmat, dan alhamdulillah, kita perlu bersyukur yang most of the time kita tak sakit...

Lagipun, macam Taichee kata, boleh menghilangkan dosa2 kecil, and mana tau, penyakit yang bersarang pun boleh hilang bila bersin atau batuk, kan? In any case. Am feeling much, much better now. The mouth is still a bit sensitive, cannot makan pedas, but overall, I’m happy I can function quite well at work already. Thanks for the well wishes, dearies. Hope to see everyone on the third :D Have a good week ahead!!

Thursday, November 24, 2005


I don't often fall sick, but once I do... pathetic nya... Did not drink enough water one night, but still puasa the next day. The results - today demam!! Sigh. Was hoping to finish my puasa 6 today, something I haven't done for a long, long time. So today, had to give it a miss, pegi klinik, makan ubat, MC, tido... Dah la my boss going away on 26th, means there are things I need to submit by tomorrow. Work is starting to grow in volume, my December is half booked already. Hmm... Need to finish some things, so I can rest a little. Kalau tak, overload, lagi senang sakit. Oh well, I have my antibiotics now. Hope to be well by tomorrow so that I can get back on track :-)

Monday, November 21, 2005

A Dangerous Drug

Active Ingredient: Substance in medications and chemicals responsible for creating desired results.

Placebo: Something, usually relating to drugs, which is almost identical to a taken substance, without actually containing the active ingredient. When taken while fully believing they are getting the desired compound, may cause psychological reactions similar to those taking the ‘real thing’.

Love: an invisible active ingredient produced by a person of the opposite gender; sometimes, among mutated species, the same gender; which is able to produce feelings of euphoria, giddiness and general feelings of well being. May cause blushing and giggling among girls and awkward behaviour among boys. Adult females may start walking on clouds and putting on rose tinted glasses. Males may experience similar feelings and exhibit territorial behaviour. Generally sought for its life balancing properties; failure to read minds and fulfil expectations related to the substance frequently causes chaos. However, the drug has always been in high demand from kingdom come to forever after.

Grades: many grades of the compound can be found in daily life from fondness, tender feelings and passion all the way to everlasting love. Counterfeit versions are often offered by con men and razor blades, thorough research and investigative works essential before buying in. High grade stuff should be handled with care due to serious side effects.

Side effects: Chronic deficiency of active ingredient may cause dysfunction and mental illness. Excessive amounts of placebos taken may cause delusions. Hardcore placebo addicts have reported difficulty trying to stop, even after being advised of the truth, especially if there is about one part per million of a gazillion chance that the placebo might contain the active ingredient they are craving for. Sudden withdrawal of active ingredients has a history of causing temporary or permanent insanity.

Conclusion: Handle with care and buyers beware.

;-D Have a good week ahead, peeps!!

Saturday, November 19, 2005

The Winds of Change

It's been 3 days since I started at CETDEM, and a lot of things has changed. It's not exactly much better or worse, just different.

I used to leave at ten in the mornings and come back after seven. Now I come in at nine sharp and get lost by five sharp. In a way, it's good. I waste less time trying to drag myself out of bed when I sleep early in anticipation of waking up early too. The office is so close to home that i'm tempted to start cycling to work. If only the LDP is not so scarily full of cars zooming to get their drivers to work on time at 8.30 in the morning!!

Technologically, I'm still in a daze. My boss is not too sure he wants me to use my own laptop for work as he believes work data should remain in the office. He wont even allow books to be taken home for reading. For someone who used to work at home, this is not easy, especially since we do not usually stay back since the office also happens to be the boss' own house. Bila I nak read- up once the days get busy with urgent work?

He also insists on keeping old data on Dbase IV. I'm worried the computer may die and the data cannot be read on other platforms. Cringe! Time to give Sali a call and see if she has any solutions to offer.

I share the project notebook with my Technical Coordinator, and we download emails once a day. No kidding. And the internet line is upstairs in the boss' office, so takde can la nak main2. Most of the PCs are on Windows 98 too, so I have to be careful about data compatibility when transferring documents from my laptop.

My TC is semi computer phobic. What kind of guy la is this? Sabar ajelah. And he managed to tai-chi website management to me. woo hoo. nanti aku buat blog karang, baru tau!! Err... anyone can help me learn web-mgmt, ah? Time to check my list of kakis and rope in some assistance.

And being an NGO specialising in energy management and issues, we have to be mega careful about wasting electricity and fossil fuels (petrol lah). I have to read up tons of stuff about global warming, CO2 emissions and how they would affect our children. The office has no aircon, but had some renovations made so it is still pleasantly cooler than the outside. I'm going to specialize in space cooling and energy audits once I finish my stint here... :D

In a way, it's good my new boss is so picky about these things. So I work harder to get everything done before five, and I can happily get home by five-thirty to cook for the husband and kids. Ooops... I mean to get online and satisfy my internet cravings. :p

Cheers, guys. Have a great weekend ahead!!

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Sushi Pizza, anyone?

Was too tired reformatting the computer to have dinner with my tai-kor and ended up having supper with another friend late at night. Failing to find a place that had syisya in Sri Hartamas, we settled on Souled Out. Food options were limited since main kitchen had already closed at ten. We weren't looking for anything heavy in the middle of the night either. I was hungry enough to jump at the suggestion for pizza. And we chose....

Sake San!!

A pizza with a crisp, light base and covered in lettuce, cherry tomatoes, salmon slices, fish roe and bits of wasabe. A light drizzle of mozzarella garnished the lot. I have no idea how they melted the cheese without cooking the sushi. But the whole thing tasted GOOD. No tomato sauce base or oodles of cheese. Just nice for someone trying not to bust her diet :-p.

A word of caution though, it is not cheap. But the generous amount of salmon does justify its RM32++ price tag.

All in all, something different, yet it works. Bon apetit!!

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Yea Yea, Kamera Baru..

:-D Had decided to get a digicam a few weeks back, but the one on sale was out of stock. Put my name in the waiting list and got their call on Tuesday. Waited until the job offer was confirmed before actually buying the camera. So today... I went and got it. Yeay!! As with any new device, it takes some getting used to. And what would be a good (and willing) subject if not my beloved cat? So here, is my beloved Pseudo - my mega posessive feline who is picky about people.

Had planned to go to the office today - have to get my stuff and finish some work before starting my new job on Wednesday. Ended up spending half the day planning my loan repayment, then buying groceries before getting my camera. Am clearing up some stuff before going to the office after Asar. Am glad I got a new job before my contract expired, but now my company is asking me to put in extra hours in lieu of compensation for early release. Sigh. Sabar ajelah...

Was out the whole day yesterday; birdwatching, meeting my juniors, raya with 2 of my champs and visiting my uncle in Selayang. Cik Jak and family also came for dinner, so it was quite the family gathering last night. It gets harder to Raya as a singleton each year, though. No fun being single in a world full of couples :-(

Have promised to go visit my cousin in Sg Penchala, hopefully I can go tonight. Karang kecik hati pulak org tua tu... As it is, had skipped my cousin Indra's engagement in the morning. Siapa la the lucky girl... Esok dah janji nak jumpa Reeza pulak. Lama tak jumpa my tai-kor tu. And Reez insists on introducing me to his new girlfriend. Urgh. Sure the lovey dovey couple punya. Tak aci. How in the world did he manage to get a girl so fast? Kena pulak org Kuantan. So the very convenient for him. Can Raya together2, can visit his kids, see her parents... Damn. I'm jealous.

In any case, after calculating all my outstanding loans, etc; I have found that I still need to do lots of extra work just to afford luxuries like new clothes and holidays. And getting married? Well, if by some miracle I find a willing candidate, let's say I'd need to do lots and lots of extra work to afford a decent ceremony. And truth be told, even if I had the cash, I would rather keep the nuptials to the minimum and use the money to buy a house/ apartment. Wonder if anyone is willing to be so radical though. In any case, it doesn't really matter since there's no one in the picture at the moment. If I liked anyone pun, it doesn't mean anything unless he likes me back. Darn. So hard being female sometimes.

Oh well. Enough feeling sorry for myself. I have a new job, I earn a decent living, I have a cat that loves me to bits, I have lots of good friends, and I have a great extended family. All in all, life is good. Cheers, guys. Have a good week ahead :-)

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Looking up!

Alhamdulillah, things are looking up after the customary setbacks.

Managed to get rid of the spyware after staying up the whole night. Am not convinced that it's totally licked yet, but so far, Ok la.

Old man offered the job to me. Alhamdulillah. Now waiting for confirmation from current bosses re: last working day. He he.. excited. Scared oso, but never mind la. Insya-Allah, can handle the job. In any case can always refer to my dear friends for tips :-)

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

Aktiviti Membuang Masa

Apa lagi, kalau tak berperang dengan Spyware. Sabar ajelah. Semua gara2 nak download Dewan Eja online, yang dapatnya spyware. Ya la, kata orang, kalau rumah lama tak berpenghuni, yang duduknya alien, betul tak. Silap la download file basi... Nasib baik Norton boleh control, takdela kena benda X-rated macam ari tu. Dah la keja aku berlambak2 tak siap, nak layan benda bodo tu pulak. Why la ramai sangat orang yang kerjanya menyusahkan orang lain? Nak ignore, takleh gak. Karang crash karang, menangis...

Hee... ni tengah tunggu org tua tu call pasal keja. Mintak2 dapat la. Nervous sieh...

Tuesday, November 08, 2005


Kena lagi... org tua tu sampai la tak bayar lagi my translation fee bulan lapan dulu. Tension betul. Kalau keja nak cepat jer. Payment tak dapat2. Dah la time tu I tengah buat job lain, sampai tak tido buatkan dia punya. Pas tu dah dapat buat bodo aje. Telefon tak angkat, pass message kat staff pun buat tak tak paham. Hai, takkan la pasal I suruh sign agreement to pay within 7 days terus mengaruk tak nak bayar langsung kot. Tak professional langsung. Dia tau aku takde masa nak sue, kalau sue pun orang gelak je RM250. But that money is mine, sikit pun, ada gak gunanya kat aku. Geram betul. Tobat pas ni tak nak lagi deal dengan Melayu cam ni. Ngapusi wong, duite dicolong. Baik aku bisnes dengan Cina je. So far they have always been good with payment. Ntah hapa-hapa la Melayu buat business camni. Project juta2, supplier taknak bayar. Sumpah jadi katak baru tau. Tak berkat dia pegang duit aku... tengok la.

Monday, November 07, 2005

Back to Work

Got a message last night - instructing us to go visit the Parliament library to do research. Went there this morning and found the powers that be still on leave. Sigh. Went back to the office where the internet connection was bonkers yet again. Damn. Had a meeting then left early for a job interview. Have been scanning round for some time actually.

It went pretty well, and I have a fair chance to get the post. I'm quite keen, it pays better than my present job. But then the office would be pretty strict, no more fooling around like this year... That's OK, just that, as usual, there's always a degree of uncertainty and worry that things might not work out. All in all, I think this is a good step forward career wise. Financially too, it would help me pay off my loans and save up so that just in case prince charming proposes, we won't have to nikah at the pejabat kadi to avoid kenduri costs :-p

I just hope that I'm doing the right thing and it will bring me a step closer to my future goals. Pray for me, please...

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Hello from Singapore

Left for Singapore yesterday afternoon, after a short visit to Mak Ngah in Kg. Pandan. You know la, kalau tangguh2 nanti, tak sampai lak...

Next stop was my kampung in Sri Gading, to visit the other Mak Ngah. Spent some time with her and my other cousins until after Maghrib. Then baru continue the journey south.

Driving down was kind of scary. I wasn't used to Johor drivers. There were a few who drove slowly, and another bunch who bulldozed everything in their path! And I thought Ipoh was bad! Anyway, managed to reach JB by ten. After the immigration check and customs check, nak renew autopass lagi (leceh betulla Singaporeans nih..), sampai to K Wok's place at 11.30 pm.

This morning did our rounds. First, jumpa Mak Long dulu kat Bedok Reservoir (rumah Abg Ali), then rumah Abg Adek & K Yati. Not going to the other houses la, tak tau jalan. I ni kan manja sket, dah biasa ada escort... eheheh...

So kejap lagi will be off to JB, visit Cik Jak, then on to KL. Wondering how to bypass the jam in Linggi-Seremban stretch. In any case, kena balik jugak, esok nak keja.

Ok, we going off now. Ciao!!

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Raya, raya!

Alaa... lambat la pulak kakak aku bersiap nih. Karang pukul berapa pulak nak sampai Singapore...

2 hari Raya kat KL pun tak abih round lagi. 1st day my friends datang sampai ke petang. Pas tu kena kemas lak, baru boleh keluar. Semalam dok melepak kat rumah Aizan. Singgah sana, singgah sini, ada lagi rumah tak sempat cover. Later2 la jawabnya...

Bagus jugak la raya kat KL, pasal pagi Raya semua orang berkumpul kat rumah sini. Semalam Abang dah balik T'ganu. We all nak turun Singapore. Abah turun later.

By Monday dah nak keja balik. Ari tu dok terkejar2, banyak tak sempat nak buat lagi. Oops, ari ni Loly's b'day. Better wish her...

Ok, peeps. have a nice Raya break & catcha all later, aight?? Ciao!!

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

The Raya Rush

Keen to renew my passport before Raya so that I could celebrate in Singapore, I headed to the Subang Immigration office at 7.15 this morning. Arriving at 7.35, there was already a long queue waiting.

It was pretty well organised, with separate queues for people who needed the form, submission (form completed with documents) and collection only. I joined the queue for forms and booted the laptop while waiting for the office to open at 8.00 a.m.

Once I got the form, I filled it up, perhaps I should have just gone into the queue straight away because once I did at 8.15, it was already very long!! It moved very, very slowly, and I did not have time to get cash or photostat my IC beforehand. As we inched forward, I found that it was not only to get the number, I was supposed to hand in everything on the spot. My kind “beratur mates” gave me permission to go and get cash from the ATM in Terminal 3 and photostat my IC at the counter inside and to get back in line when I’m done. Whew! Nice to know that Malaysians are still the understanding people I’m used to. Kiasu-ness is sooo off-putting.

While waiting in the photostat queue, I spotted Na, an old schoolmate from TKC. She came over with her youngest “hero” – she has 3 kids, all boys… goodness!! Managed to chat for a bit, catching up with news.

Back in the old, crawling line, I booted up the machine and proceeded to work. Again, the kind people allowed me to sit quietly at the side without following the progressing line. I could simply reclaim my spot any time I wanted. So nice of them :-)

By the time I reached the counter, it was already 10.55 a.m. and I was told to come back at 2.00 p.m. Alamak!! But I needed to go to MATRADE in KL…! Decided to just go and come back as soon as I’m done in KL.

Luckily, the business in KL didn’t take long and utilizing the highway from Jalan Duta, I managed to get there in 20 minutes, well before 2.00. Woo hoo! Record, sieh… Good thing too, because I was 6th in line. If I missed my turn, I might not have had the chance to settle the renewal process.

Everything went well and I was done by 3.00 p.m. It took longer than I expected, but thanks to the lappie, the 4 hours wasn’t totally wasted. Am looking forward to picking up my passport tomorrow and Raya with the Singapore clan again. And of course, spending the first 2 days with the KL gang :-)

*Oh God, something smells delicious from next door. Darn. I have to start cooking too.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Selamat Hari Raya to all

To my dearest friends,

~ Selamat Hari Raya & Maaf Zahir Batin ~
Anak itik berenang-renang
Anak paus tersedak-sedak
Kalau dah mengadap ketupat & rendang
Jangan la lupa kat kita pulak...
Anak monyet mengacau dodol
Anak katak membungkus lepat
Bawak kereta biarlah betul
Janji sampai dengan selamat
Copyright limited: The Ikan Paus Biru
Ahak, ahak, sorilah korang. Dah 2 pagi nih... nak berpantun pun dah tak larat. Semalam ada marathon buat kuih raya... penat siut... sampai tertido-tido gitu. Sedar tak sedar, semua orang dah start cuti raya, kita kad raya pun tak cari lagi, so I wish you all kat sini ajerlah, ya.
To all my sayangs, do forgive me kalau ada terkasar bahasa, terlaser, terbuat apa2 yang you all tak puas hati, mintak halal termakan terminum, terpakai, tercurik, tersonglap etc etc etc. Sila la singgah rumah, will be around on 1st Raya and part of 2nd day. Will be back in residence by 7th Oct, insya-Allah. Hope everyone will have a safe journey back to your respective kampungs, have a wonderful Raya with your loved ones and to see you all again real soon :-)
Just me,

Wednesday, October 26, 2005 Literary scam

I have since learnt to take any correspondence, websites and offers originating from Africa and USA with a bucket of salt, sometimes two.

Surfing for a free ringtone the other day, I was assured free stuff all the way until the last page where I discovered that I would have to pay USD19.90 in 'membership fees' before I could get at my "free" ringtones. Nothing doing la. You can buy one you like for RM2 only. B****y Americans!

A few months ago, I found a pretty interesting website - After checking out the other submissions, I submitted one of my own. Surprisingly, I received a letter a few months later, saying that I was in the running to win a prize. I was quite flattered, I must say, but still a tad skeptical. There was some such nonsense about being published and attending the semi-final conference, bla di bla. Of course, where got money to go to US, right? So I just kept quiet la. I never even proofed the poem they were going to 'publish'.

Sometime later, while chatting with Anaz, found that SHE had submitted and got an offer too! We concluded that it must be some kind of scam. I went in again and found the one guy who represented Malaysia and found him to be extremely 'poyo'. No offense, but, really. And his submission was in a word, abysmal. I may not be a published writer, but hey, I'm in love with the written word. I know when I see something good...

Since I kept receiving offers from them, awash in cloying saccharine sweet words so typical of African and American scam mail, I decided to do some sleuthing and found tons of bad stuff about them. So peeps, take note of the article below, and avoid being scammed!

More search results here and here and here


Failure is impossible at -- the website where every poem is a semifinalist.

-- by David Taub

The truth about us poets, who share our writing with others, and even if some tell you otherwise, is that ultimately we do enjoy positive feedback about our writing! If I had just a dollar for every individual who has 'secretly confided in me' that they were thrilled their poem had been accepted by publisher x,y,z, I could spend the rest of my life writing everything for free.

Overall, my experience is that very few publishers, who accept a submitted poem, respond with a lengthy letter overflowing with 'flattery'. It was few years ago when I first received a letter from someone excitedly telling me they had received such a letter, and they also went to the trouble of sending me a photocopy of the 'acceptance'.

Everyone has to start somewhere and I was naive about who was who in the poetry publishing market. In fact I was living in England at the time and had never heard of the 'publisher' in question. But there was something VERY suspicious about this acceptance letter. Having said that, I am very suspicious of any 'form letter' - namely a standard letter which has probably never been touched by a human hand. My suspicions were quickly confirmed when the same publisher's name cropped up several more times in quick succession, and I then managed to obtain copies from the various jubilant poets.

And let's face it, what novice wouldn't be thrilled to receive a letter starting "After carefully reading and discussing your poem, our Selection Committee has certified your poem as a semi-finalist….." And there's more: "In celebration of the unique talent that you have displayed, we also wish to publish your poem in what promises to be one of the most highly sought after collections we have ever promised …"

In fact a novice's head could easily swoon, and their chest burst with pride when told, "Before we go any further, (poets name inserted), let me make one thing clear … your poem was selected for publication, and as a contest semi-finalist, on the basis of your unique talent and artistic vision."

Several years down the line I am amassing a wonderful collection of these letters. Courtesy of some 'interesting characters' who came to my assistance in an interesting experiment. Their names include: Stephen AbutLOL, Wadda (ass) Iyam, and the most recent, Wergle Flomp.

These characters discovered that with the wonders of the Internet, the 'publishing company' whose 'Selection Committee carefully reads and discusses' all the submissions, now accepts submission at their website

It was a curiosity on my part as to how 'awful' a poem has to be before a letter is issued along the lines of "Thanks for your submission but…. NO THANKS!"

Stephen AbutLOL's first attempt to fail the acceptance test with "Wots a pome", was abysmal. When I shared this experiment with my readers in the UK poetry magazine (Poetry Now), one reader commented that perhaps it was not awful enough because the first four lines had a vague 'rhythm and rhyme' to it!:

Wot's a pome if it don't rhyme
have to make it beat with time
Very serious stuff is pomes
you can write them in your homes.

Hmm back to the drawing board, and not to be thwarted, Stephen's second attempt was expected to draw a letter along the lines of "If you continue to submit drivel like this, we shall have to seek a restraining order." Unfortunately, he failed again and received great acclaim for "Nicky Nacky Noo"

Nicky Nacky Noo

Tum tum tum de tum
This is apoem I sings a lot
to make me very vary hapy.
I fink it will look good on a poster two.
and a cofey mug to shows my frineds
at work so they no i am an internashunal
poet who mite even winz a prise!
Then i wuld be vary famus
and hav lotz of muney
wich wuld be vary funny
coz some of them sayd I was
eliterite wich sucks
(I hopes I can say sucks, if not
please put a defferent word instead.)
and also I just sore the poem
has to be 20 lines long so
I am counting the lynes again.
This is line nienteen
and this in number twenty. Thanx. The End

-- Stephen Abutlol

Unfortunately the seeking of clarification as to whether or not he could use the word 'sucks' somehow was considered to be part of the poem too. And there they are on full display amongst the searchable database of all 1.4 million submissions which can be checked through at

This was proving to be a tough competition indeed! How to bring the 'Selection Committee' to a collective outburst of outrage rather than praise and admiration!

Next up to the plate steps Wadda ass Iyam (although the acceptance letter does not recognise or acknowledge Wadda's middle name).

Yew Gotta Larf.

Yew gotta larf at any moreon
who could write, "your poem was selected
for publication, and as a contest semi-finalist, on the basis of your unique talent
and artistic vision."
when we all know this is about as artistic
as vomitting on the neigbour's porch.
Burp... huey... excuse me while I be artistic on your cat.. so much for
the vision.. I never saw your cat.
Now let's get down to the real truth..
You hope I am fooled into parting with
my cash to see this in your anthology.
Wot if NO-ONE bought your books, mugs
plaques, keyrings? (have you thought of musical toilet-roll holders?)
I look forward to receiving your standard letter telling me how artistic this drivel is. If nothing else, I get a free envelope
which I can recycle.

-- Bert

This had to be the one that broke the poetic back, don't you think? Under his pen name 'Bert' was counting on one of the 'Selection Committee' being an avid cat lover, whereby Bert could be rightfully accused of encouraging animal abuse! Not a chance. Wadda now proudly stands toe to toe with Stephen, and "Yew Gotta larf" is also on proud display for the whole cyber world to admire!

It was with some disappointment today, Wergle Flomp received a letter from for his poem:


flobble bobble blop
yim yam widdley woooo
oshtenpopple gurby
yip yip yip
nish-nash nockle nockle
opfem magurby voey
Ahh! "Wurby tictoc?"
"quefoxenjib masaloouterp!"
bim-burm nurgle shliptog
afttowicky wicky wicky
erm addmuksle slibberyjert !
Reqi stoobery bup dinhhk
yibberdy yobberdy hif twizzum moshlap
dwisty fujefti coppen smoppen dob
tigtog turjemy fydel
saxtenvurskej brisleywum
swiggy swiggy swug
yumostipijjle dobers!

-- Copyright Wergle Flomp January 2000

He was informed, "In celebration of the unique talent that you have displayed, we also wish to publish your poem in what promises to be one of the most highly sought after collections of poetry we have ever published... Promises of Love (ISBN 1-58235-065-5)".

However, on a slightly upbeat and encouraging note for Wergle, this acceptance was not accompanied with an additional 'bonus' that Stephen Abutlol had previously received. There was no note saying they had also selected the piece to be read by a 'professional reader', to be put on audio cassette. Neither Wergle or I can imagine why! What is difficult about reciting " Reqi stoobery bup dinhhk" ?

One can only assume that Romantic poetry is better read off the page!

At the time of writing this, Wergle's poem had not been posted on the website where Stephen's and Wadda's fine masterpieces can be displayed and enjoyed. But given time who knows?

I still remain very keen to see what a 'rejection slip' looks like, however.

On a slightly different twist, having had several emails from poetry friends, I want to make it quite clear - NO I have not and never would submit their poetry to this 'publishing house'. This is in response to my being informed they had discovered some of their work had appeared on the site without their knowledge or permission, having searched and found their name!

For what little consolation it is, I even discovered a poem of mine had been 'acquired' and posted on their site.

At one point, I did have a phone number for and I contacted them asking how this could have possibly happened. Unfortunately I was passed around between their 'customer service' staff without any explanation. Surprisingly, it was not possible for me to speak with any of the 'Selection committee'. In exasperation, I wrote to them, threatening that both I and my publisher would sue them for breach of copyright. Fortunately that did the trick.

If anyone else has more luck, than Stephen AbutLOL, Wadda (ass) Iyam and Wergle Flomp, in extracting a 'rejection slip' from this organisation, I would be delighted to see a copy!

I am of the understanding they also promote themselves under the names: National Library of Poetry and International Library of Poetry.


Copyright David Taub, January 2000

Originally written for Poetic Voices (Internet 'ezine'), and modified.

First published (Hard-copy) The Legend, West Florida, Literary Federation Inc., September 2000

Monday, October 24, 2005

Kau Ilhamku… ;-)

Had a good weekend with the D3kat gang and Ilham group. Thanks, peeps, it was great meeting up again, as always.

Buka puasa on Saturday at Zura's with Chey, Azam, Zura (of course) & Anaz. Zura & Anaz pakat masak the main course. Azam & Chey bawak murtabak and desserts. I brought Choc Fudge Cake & kuih tako. Sayang CikJee, Inas & Yuz could not make it. Should have had more people over to help makan :-D Conversation was good, covering macam2 issues from business to politics to TV series. Heh heh. That was fun.

Us girls stayed over and chatted until very late. After sahur we all took a nap and... terlajak!! Aargh!! Me & Anaz had other commitments, so had to rush off. I went to Rumah Ilham to help clean up their library. Tu pun sampai lewat. We rearranged their books and cleaned up the place. They have lots and lots of cool books and mags! Jeles I!! Books are darn expensive, kan… Hopefully they’ll realise their good fortune and start utilizing the lib. Sayang all the books wasted.Balik awal to get some other stuff done. Tak sempat singgah jumpa Mama Gie pun kat OU. Malam had a buka puasa meeting lak. Adehs…

Tonight, joined them for tahlil, buka puasa & terawih. There was a slide show and duit raya presentation as well. No more IEP until next year. Insya-Allah, we’ll meet again then.

Have discovered quite a number of people who are celebrating Raya in KL. Yeay... Ada gang! Am looking forward to our Raya plans… and to think not so long ago I felt a wee bit lost deciding where to go… So this year it's KL -> BP -> SG. Hmm.. wonder if there'd be any changes next year... I hope so ;-)

Friday, October 21, 2005

Internet Tools You Just Have to Have

There’s plenty of nonsense to be found on the internet, but some things have become quite indispensable in making my life easier. They might make yours easier too…

A few favourites are:-
1. Plaxo
- this service stores your address book AND Outlook data online. It serves as a pretty useful backup address book especially for those who have no PDA and can’t access their computer while travelling. Also replenishes your address book, schedules, memos and other data after data loss in case of a crash or laptop being stolen. Synchronizes regularly.

2. Google Search
- My all time favourite, it looks up stuff I need to find in a jiffy, even inane things like how to wire your plug or remove candle wax from the glass top table. Indispensable to find required info for research purposes. Also to vet news and urban legends that you receive in the mail.

3. Google Desktop
- Ah… my new best friend. When you have gazillions of information scattered in hundreds of files and emails in your computer, this tool saves time spent digging in your folders for that one document or email containing crucial information that you desperately need. Also has a sidebar that has RSS feeds and scratch pad for quick updates. It minimizes very neatly too.

4. Instant Messaging & Internet Telephone
- Y!M, IM, Skype – excellent tool for communications. Chatting – you know how it works la. Yahoo and Skype offers free voice calls between members (I’m sure you already know that). Skype also offers paid calls to normal phones at very reasonable prices. All you need is a phone/ mic set and minimum 512 kB connection. Indispensable for keeping in touch with friends, family and business associates overseas without burning your bank account.

5. Emails
- Something we take for granted these days, but think about it. Not too long ago, we rely on snail mail to send documents all over the place. Now we send photos, documents, audio files, videos, etc almost instantly. Not only is it convenient, it’s crucial for efficiency.

I don’t know about you, but I thank the people who invented these things from the bottom of my heart. :-)

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

You Are Pocahantas!
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Free-spirited and wise. You have a strong passionate spirit that touches and changes all who know you. The wisdom and common sense that you have is really what guides you through life. Even so, you also have a very playful side that loves adventure and excitement.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

:-) Thanks, Izreen! I like...

Just another manic Monday...

He he he... Remember that old, old song? My Sunday was just as busy, though

Went to Taichee’s for berbuka on Friday, which was nice. Thanks for inviting, sis :-) Had stuff to do for MNS, and was making calls at intervals, desperately trying to get myy volunteers sorted out for the Sunday event which I had decided to skip.

Spent the first half of Saturday running around paying bills and getting supplies. Then fell asleep in the afternoon. Cheez! What a waste of time! Did a bit of this and that at night, then played Bookworm until sahur time. So clever… (read in sarcastic tone). Have banned games from my computer until further notice. Sigh…

Took a few hours’ nap after Subuh, then had to go out to get even more stuff which I didn’t realise I needed the day before. Darn… It rained and rained the whole Sunday morning. Was informed that the event in KSNP turned out well despite the rain, thanks to the team of dedicated volunteers and the publicity effort the week before. Maybe I should have shown face, but really, had to get things done at home, could not spare the time in KSNP yet again...

I had baking to do and discovered that one SHOULD NOT double the batch for London Almonds unless there are extra hands. P came to help with some painting, which I will be eternally grateful for. He also took me out for berbuka, so I didn’t have to cook. Thank you, dearie; really, really appreciate that :-) Was so tired I would probably have messed it all up anyway. Went for a little gathering after Maghrib which was kind of fun.

Worked at home today since I had a meeting in the evening and not keen to waste time stuck in a jam. Can’t say I got huge amounts done, though. Met the Annual Dinner team in Plaza Damas for berbuka and discussion. Sign said parking RM2 per entry after 6 pm but I had to pay the machine RM8. Bloodsuckers! Wonder if I can demand a refund from the management company for misleading information… Had a good discussion with the girls; hope everything works out well for the dinner in January.

And now it’s already midnight, and I wonder if I’ll ever catch up with everything on my list. Hope I don’t get sick; been feeling a little more tired than usual lately. In any case, have a good, productive week ahead, peeps. Over and out :-)

Friday, October 14, 2005

Is it a sign?

Some girls had given me a musical ornament for my 21st birthday a long, long time ago. It is a circular box made of metal and glass panels with a light inside. A pair of glass swans adorn the top. They’re made of melted glass, fused together, like the ones they make in Central Market. The song it plays is “Memories”. When you switch the light on and wind the base, the box would turn and the swans would be bathed in changing colours. It was probably the prettiest ornament I ever had.

A few months later, out of sheer carelessness, I broke them while packing for the holidays. Not being one to throw anything away, especially one so special, I glued them back together with UHU glue. And that’s the way they had been for the past ten years or so.

Recently, I had started hanging my necklaces around one of the wings. This morning, without any warning, the whole thing came tumbling off the dresser shelf. The swans broke. And suddenly I realised how badly patched and ugly they were. There was no way to properly clean them and a lot of dust had accumulated over the years. I hadn’t wound it up for the longest time…

First, I tore off the broken bits and then pried the swans completely off the glass top. I wound up the base, it still worked fine. I could probably find something else to replace the swans. Something nice. Something whole.

And suddenly I thought, maybe it’s a sign. A curse had been broken. I would no longer have mismatched relationships that went nowhere. Maybe I’d find a decent guy who would love me as much as I loved him… Maybe he would be my other half and we would be complete…

Could it be true? I don’t know. I’m not particularly superstitious or given to flights of fancy. But somehow, at that moment, I had wanted it to be true. Maybe. Just maybe, it will come true...

Thursday, October 13, 2005


Do you guys have this problem trying to keep your mind from straying? Sometimes I think I have the worst discipline in the world. I can easily handle unwelcome chatters, but I have trouble keeping my own nose to the grindstone!! I’m constantly looking for ways to distract myself from the task at hand. And I have to constantly stop myself from succumbing to these urges…

I’d be working when I’d get this itch to play Bejeweled 2. So I block Yahoo! Games from my browser. Next, I’d be going on Tradewinds 2 for no apparent reason. So I uninstall that from the computer. Trust me, next, out of desperation I’d be clicking on Minesweeper, or FreeCell or Pinball. Disgusting habit. If those (thankfully) don’t catch my fancy, I’d go bloghopping or start writing… (see, I'm doing it right now)

And of course, there is always the all time favourite – daydreaming!! I have sooooo many things to mentally plan in my head – like what to write about topic A, B, C or D; how to rearrange the furniture, what colour to paint the grille, who I can bribe into helping with stuff, list goes on and on…

Aiyoo!! Like this ah, I’d better become a famous writer la. So at least lepaking somewhere people watching can be termed “doing research”. And I can write all the merapu meraban ideas I have all day long. Wow! Bestnyer… Except if my publisher starts bugging me for the new manuscript la…

Poof! Daydream over… Oi! Get back to work la… He he he…

Wednesday, October 12, 2005


Kwang 3x... Nampak sangat takder modal nak blog. Eh heh heh... But don't play play... resipi ni la yang terkenal seantero WWF & TRAFFIC. Sampai sekarang makcik dapat call, orang mintak buatkan. Cuma takde masa ajer nak buat. So korang try la sendiri, ya? Insya-Allah jadik. Kalau nak cokelat, meh ambik kat rumah. I got extra stock la...

London Almonds
250g mentega
360g tepung gandum
90g gula halus
120g tepung jagung
sedikit garam
esen vanila
badam -> inti

125g cooking chocolate + 1 tbsp shortening
badam hancur (almond nibs) -> hiasan

Bakar badam dulu! Easiest - roast dalam microwave 2 minit sahaja. Unfortunately results vary according to microwave. But the timing lebih kurang cam tu la.

1. Ayak tepung bersama garam dan tepung jagung
2. Putar mentega dan gula sehingga sebati -> jgn lama sgt
3. Masukkan esen vanila
4. Masukkan tepung sedikit-sedikit dan uli hingga adunan sebati dan tidak lekat pada jari. Jangan keras sangat.
5. Balut inti badam dengan tepung. Bakar 18-20 minit pada suhu 190°C. Sejukkan.
6. Cairkan coklat (use double boil technique, pls). Celupkan biskut dan masukkan ke dalam cawan kertas. Hias dengan badam hancur.

Customer service hotline: My Handphone la.

Selamat mencuba!! :-D

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

At a Loss for Words

I normally have a lot of things to say. Right now I have a lot of things in my head. And I can't say it all out loud. All I can say is, I'm tired. I look tired, I feel tired, but I can't stop moving. Because I'm afraid that if I stop, things would pile up on top of my head and drown me. I wish I could have the power to clear all these things in one day. Then maybe I can breathe a little freely...

Friday, October 07, 2005

What the Heck Happened??

Was on the way home at about 8.30 pm, had eaten in the office because there wasn’t much point wading through the jam trying to get home. At the junction in Section 16, I saw this kid, well, teenager, try to cross the street and got sideswiped by a car. He took a tumble, hit his head, but managed to get back on his feet.

The car stopped, but the driver made no attempt to come out and make sure he was all right. The boy was upright and the Merc happily drove off. From across the street, I thought the boy looked dazed. He was pacing and agitated. Well, the lights were red for a long time… I felt sorry for him and offered him a ride. He had hurt himself and I didn’t want him to kill himself trying to get a cab; which I discovered was the reason he didn’t see the car coming in the first place. Dropped him off in PBD, where he said his parents would pick him up. He insisted on getting off at the traffic lights, which was green, and was so kan-cheong crossing to the side that I almost ran over him. Geez! Didn’t anyone tell him not to cross in front of a vehicle??

The drive was a little strange. The kid went to Int school and was surprised I spoke English well. Je parlais Francais aussi, mon ami (voice dripping with sarcasm). He was nervous and acted like I was going to kidnap him or something. Goodness, don’t you know any un-rich people? And why the heck didn’t the car driver offer any assistance? The kid could have had a concussion, for heaven’s sake! What if it happened to someone they loved? This is just one of the things that disturb me sometimes.

A friend once blacked out in a crowded LRT and no one actually took the trouble to ask if she was all right! It’s a sad state of affairs… Malaysians need to move forward in caring for each other, because sometimes I think only our common love for food is holding the country together. Racism is rife, and trust is an alien word. Government campaigns are more often than not ineffective.

So what can we do? How can Malaysia grow into a true nation? I’m no politician, but I do know this, I don’t want it to turn into a place where the selfish take over and hearts are hardened by fear and mistrust. I know that caring Malaysians still exist, so there still is hope. Let’s make caring our way of life, as it was, and always should be…

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Weekend Plans

Was in FRIM all day yesterday. Then met up with Chris & Lorett & Susanna in the evening. Then we came up with this idea to go up Fraser’s during the weekend. During puasa month. Where I might end up eating bread because the shops are all closed. And walk around all day birding? Is that a good idea? But I miss Fraser’s. Haven’t been there since…. April? And surely there will be stalls open at night, right? And walking in the cool air wouldn’t be so bad. I could always go back and rest if it got too much to handle. But the house needs cleaning up. And I need to do paperwork. And I’ll be away again next weekend. So how? I’ll decide tomorrow…

Monday, October 03, 2005

Tired larr…

Had been having an easy time at work until recently. After the conference in “Land of Demented Drivers”, tried to catch up with work on the remaining 2 days.

Saturday morning went to check out the MDC Water Sports Festival. P was nowhere to be found when I arrived. The DJ/MC sounded exactly like P, even though he looked different from afar. Assumed he was pulling my leg and was deejaying instead of rowing. Since phone had suddenly gone bonkers, I couldn’t call him and decided to just lepak at the jetty. The races were pretty good, a lot of events and well orchestrated. Cheered for whichever team I fancied, chatted with some of the other spectators, basically just enjoying the time out. Went over to the MC station before I left only to find that the MC was some Indian fella. Eh…?? Stared long and hard; just in case he was wearing a disguise or something. In the end concluded that it was NOT him and went off. But the vocal similarity was really freaky!

Spent the rest of the weekend in Kuala Selangor for an MNS event. The turnout wasn’t so great, so it was a bit of a waste. But we had a good seafood dinner and it was good meeting up the other volunteers. Got home Sunday afternoon, took a nap, and then went on a shopping spree for birthday prezzies for the whole family… had put it off since Abah’s birthday in May!

Had to give Zaki’s housewarming a miss – pity, heard it was a blast!

Got to Abang’s by seven, ate, gave out the goodies and played with my 2 nieces before I went off at nine. Should spend more time with family la… Anis and Aina are so clever, and the little one’s already two… how time flies. Got home and had to sort out more stuff before I conked out.

And today, a new week stretches ahead… My task list has ballooned during the weekly update meeting and there’ll be more MNS meetings this week. Sigh. I really have to catch up with my work, I’m so far behind it’s scary.

There’s loads of housework to be done as well. Always tried to share the burden but somehow end up doing everything myself. Dirt, grime and messiness always drive me nuts and unfortunately someone is taking advantage of my impatience. Ignore it long enough and I’ll be cleaning it in the middle of the night after a long day at work and stuff. Not fair, and I hate it, but I need the house to be clean and I can’t kick out the other person for being oblivious to the basics of good housekeeping. Do I sound angry? Yes, I’m angry. I’m tired of taking care of things while the other person comes home and relaxes. I feel like the maid sometimes. I know I have more fun and good friends; I love my life, I love the house, but being the maid sucks!

So this week is catching up with work week. Hope to get everything straightened out during this puasa month. To all Muslims, Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan al-Mubarak. May Allah bless us all :-)

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Havin' a Good Time

Conferences can be such fun... The point is not so much in listening to the speakers as in building your network of allies. Of course it is always useful to learn new stuff and keep abreast of the latest developments, but naturally, not everything will be up your alley anyway.

Lots of thoughts and debates have cropped up in the past 2 days. Doubt if I'll have the time to put them into words, though. Ini pun have to force myself to deal with some MNS tasks tonight. My room mate day belayor dah. And the room is wintry cold tonight...

Better get to bed now, tomorrow is another long day. Will be visiting the Larut Matang mangroves. Yeay!! That would be sooo good. I've always wanted to go there :-)

Cheers, guys. Miss u all. Catch up when I'm back, kay? Ciao!!

Monday, September 26, 2005


Am accessing the internet from my hotel room in Ipoh. So far so good. Room turned out to be nice and clean. Ada aircon and hot water. Not bad. Just kena saman last night for going at 125… aiyaa… too old to buat muka inesen by now…

Conference has been pretty good. Spending lots of time lepaking with the WWX – ex-WWF staff… Meet some good new faces. Hope this pays off :-)

Cheers, guys. Have a good week ahead!

Friday, September 23, 2005

Friday oredy ah?

Goodness! So fast?? Was just crawling through my assignments this week, took the day off yesterday and it's Friday again... The whole MONTH went by in a blur... Sabar ajelah. Thought I'd work from home semalam. Hmph... work apanya? Tak sempat buat apa pun. Tu la pasal turun pukul tiga pagi nih...

Had assignments to complete, as well as arrange for my trips to KSNP and Ipoh next week. The other girl ada hal kat Penang, so couldn't tai-chi booking accommodations to her... Felt like I was being pulled in two directions between Work and Personal stuff. That was before cooking took over my day lar.

Spent the whole day preparing food for tahlil arwah Mak. Biasanya biar Abah je arrange, but ntah la, tahun ni rasa macam nak buat sendiri pulak... Found that cooking is SO time consuming. Ingatkan sekejap jer masak simple food. But factor in beli barang, prepare ingredients, masak, pack, kemas... it took up almost the whole day! Patut la pun caterers charge mahal sangat. Nasib baik Aunty Rose & Abah tolong. K Ayu tolong kemas & Abang will reimburse expenses. Nak buat later, takut tak sempat... Nasib baik la buat kat masjid. Kalau kat rumah, lagi la banyak keja. Lack of manpower is a serious issue...

At least managed to organise my documents, iron out plans for the weekend and book a room in Ipoh. Thank God for small favors... Got the hotel name from my si-fu, but now wondering what kind of place it is... It's cheap and close to our conference venue, but the guy keeps pushing the deluxe room. Elo... I told you 2 girls right...? Hope its not some kind of dodgy place... Choy!! Maybe should bring sleeping bag along, just in case sheets has eau de Clorox. Side effects of working with a small company - always trying to save cost... Sabar, sabar... more profits, more bonus... Hopefully!

Looking forward to meeting up with D3Katians tonight. C U all later, girls :-)

Monday, September 19, 2005

Indon Concert: Not That Nice but...

Who said blogs must always be nice? I need to vent my laser tongue once in a while.

Spent Friday night up at Teratak with the boys, Aizan, Naz & Jai. As usual, layan the boys, masak, makan, tido... Came down Saturday afternoon. Read a book. Next day speed read paper. Go buy groceries. Finish book. Go to Aizan's to main masak2. Go to concert. Supper.

The charity concert was a waste of time la for me. Dah la I tak kenal pun the artistes, except for Hazami. The sound system was bad, and whole show was meant for the Indonesian fans. Ergh... I think I enjoyed last week's UMSO concert better la.

Hazami's performance sucked big time. He's got a good voice and nice songs, but he sang the pointless ones. Hmm... The sound was at its worst when he sang, and stage presence was zero! Hey, bro, you got good stuff, but kena polish la...

Then was Nina, a very pretty Indonesian lass in a pretty outfit. Boys liked her... But she did have a good voice. And she knew how to work the crowd.

Next was Marcel, sans rambut gondrong. First, he was cute in a white long sleeved tee. Next, tee came off, leaving a sleeveless black top. Mm hmmm.... Girls' turn to cuci mata... ahaha... Good showmanship, donno what he was mumbling, but all the girls were going ga ga la.

Dayang Nurfaizah - powerful voice, but someone made her wear a dowdy green gown. So not nice. Good vocals though. She tried, but crowd was just not interested...

Last came Glenn. OK. I heard his songs before. Barely. Great showmanship, good voice. But he liked to drag the songs la... Penat nak dengar.

In the end I went outside. I needed the space, too crowded inside. Guess I'm just old fashioned. I like poetic songs. I love Zubir Ali, Koptratasa, JayJay, M Nasir, Ramli Sarip and the like... Blame my grandparents, they raised me.

Wonder how much of the ticket money actually went to rebuilding Aceh... Oh well... win some, lose some...

It was fun spending time with Aizan & co. We had foot long sausage at Projet. There were some interesting incidences at Teratak. I fell in love with that Wall's Lidah Jeli, or whatever it's actually called. Jai was grossed out, you're on yr own, man... ha ha ha. Lepaking at Aizan's was nice. Then supper at Anggerik was interesting...

Just the concert aje la tak best, kan? Never mind, Marcel's biceps and Glenn's "Januari" redeemed the show somewhat... akakakaka... sabar ajelah...

Friday, September 16, 2005

Our Clothes and Us

Some say, “Clothes doth make a man.” Or woman, for that matter. Lately, I’ve noticed that certain styles suit certain people according to their lifestyles more than build or skin tone. It’s kind of like a signature, more than perfumes and accessories.

Some look great in simple collared tees. Suits their sporty lifestyle.

My tai-kor looks drop dead gorgeous in white shirts. I kid you not. Not work shirts; I’m talking those loose, homespun cotton thingys. Shouts “Charmer” to the max. No wonder la he’s got so many girlfriends…

Acik loves his donno what, ala ala Jepun styles. Slightly perverted, theatre going, musicoholic…?

Some people like Taichee~* look great in anything. Isk… jeles!

Aizan is always pretty pretty in her girly togs. A Creature Like No Other ;-)

Owh… how could I forget a certain fuchsia clad male seen in the vicinity of TESCO yesterday? Sez – “It’s MY choice. Get used to it.” Hmm…

I prefer simply cut clothes; no fussy designs, please. Do love texture, the feel of cottons and silks…

Everyone else – CikJee, Zura, etc etc all have their own styles.

And the point is….?

Don’t bother with the latest styles and trends. You know what suits you best. :-D

Thursday, September 15, 2005

Announcement: Festival of Wings

The Malaysian Nature Society is organising guided walks in Kuala Selangor Nature Park on 2 days in October - on the 2nd and 16th. Tickets are RM5 only for entrance fee + guided walk.

I'll be staying over the night before, and would like to invite everyone to join in the fun. We could get a seafood dinner and do the Kuala Selangor fireflies at night. The whole thing ends by Sunday noon.

Will send a proper invite later. Sorry, peeps, gotta go :-)

Monday, September 12, 2005

Full steam ahead!

Had a good, lazy weekend, just hanging out at home. Caught a show by the UM Symphony Orchestra in DTC on Saturday night. There was Zubir Ali, Kopratasa, Sham (VISA) and a few other singers, including two students. It was really good; vocals were excellent, as was the music. There was a nice mix of folk songs, oldies, Kopratasa signature songs and patriotic stuff. Plus sajak recitation as well. All in all, it was a good mix. The show closed with everyone heartily joining in to sing Sudirman’s “31 Ogos” song. I’m personally tone deaf, so I don’t go to a lot of these things, but hey, I’m glad I did! It was free too. There’s supposed to be another show on 10th Dec. I’ll put that on my calendar. Thanks for the heads up, Suz. Keep ‘em coming, please. :-)

I’m so pleased with work. So many new projects are coming in, it’s great to have projects to work on rather than going fishing for new business. Marketing is so not my thing. :-D

And the best thing is, I still can do a few laps in KJ before coming to work… Need to consider changing pools, though. There were quite a few guys there this morning and ladies’ day is on Fridays only. Shy la… Maybe I can go back to UiTM again. Except for the distance, I love that pool…

Thursday, September 08, 2005

Selective Writers' Block

Hmph... why la do I do this to myself..? I keep distracting myself with all sorts of nonsense while that little bit of additional work I promised the old man is progressing at snail's pace... I'm way overdue oredy and there's about a ton of other work which is on hold until I get this bit done... Sigh... Giving myself unnecessary stress some more...

1st week of the month is always the bane of my existence due to my monthly comm meetings. Have been coming home after 11.00 the past few days. Exhausted oo... MNS byk giler kerja nak buat. Pastu my chairman dok trying to taruh more and more work on my lap... eh hello, comm members lain kan ada? Maybe it's his perverted accountant/banker's way of trying to see more of me for free. Well, Mr Chairman, you're losing points big time. Right now yr rating is lower than yr car! Try buying me dinner sometime, you schmuck. I think I'll have to drop Chang and minimise IEP involvement. Possibly drop Tekad Pahang as well.

Urgh. Gotta finish this NOW. A new project just came in and I'll be busy until February. My checklists are already overflowing as it is... sigh. Wish all these things will get magically done. Boleh tak?

Saturday, September 03, 2005

Thank you, sayangs!

Having unabashedly announced my upcoming birthday and shamelessly asking to be treated, I was quite overwhelmed by the attention I got from my lovely, lovely friends the past 2 days. I received well wishes literally the whole day long, thanks to P who had actually waited to send the last message for the day... cheeky boy! And there is more coming next week from my darling tai-kor who had profusely apologised for missing my b'day due to the loss of his hp. Obviously he relies on his phone calendar as much as I rely on my Outlook. :-D

Celebrated on the day itself with my colleagues in the office, then went out for dinner with Lorett, Chris & Fiza. Nain was away in Oz, but we had a lovely time anyway. Last night the Tekadmons and IEP gang met up in One-U and held up Nando's until late. Afterwards we went on to watch Charlie & The Chocolate Factory, which was fun.

Guess I was just curious how they would portray Roald Dahl's book on screen. I found it to be more colourful than what I imagined from the book, but seen from a kid's perspective it was really nicely done with lots of good values thrown in. Johnny Depp made a very eccentric Willy Wonka and the Oompa-Loompas were cute. And the 4 brats were examples of how NOT to spoil your child!! My favourite part would be Charlie's family in the ramshackle old house, having hardly enough to eat, but held together with love so strong not even the prospect of Wonka's riches could tear Charlie away. It was a good movie.

I went home laden with prezzies, feeling 12 instead of 32! Thanks so very, very much to Aizan, Anang, Sherrie, Naz, Zaki, Chaain't, Aziana, Bet, Azam, Eyeda, Jai, Azura & the star organiser, Inas for making my b'day so special this year. Loly, Anaz & Yuz, wish you guys could have been there too...

I have no idea how to repay everyone for the lovely wishes, treats and prezzies I got. ~sniff~ must have been the best b'day I ever had in my life... Hopefully by next year, my Other Half would have been found, and the day would be even more meaningful... Thanks again, sayangs, for the lovely celebration. Mwwaaah... luv u all :-)

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Hero - Mariah Carey

There's a hero If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid Of what you are
There's an answer If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know Will melt away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
It's a long road When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand For you to hold
You can find love If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt Will disappear
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Lord knows Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone Tear them away
Hold on There will be tomorrow
In time You'll find the way
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Sunday, August 28, 2005

Une nouveau blog du favourite

Cette blog c'est en francais, mais c'est tres magnifique! Trouvere il via Le Monde...

Cliquez ici:

Pardonnez le langue mes amis - j'ai ne pas temps pour practique mon francais du semaine! Au revoir...

Saturday, August 27, 2005


I don't know why, but things have been pretty bizarre lately. Maybe it's lack of sleep.

One day I actually drove over a bleeding divider that was placed across the original entrance to the public swimming pool car park. I was in a hurry, trying to squeeze in a few laps b4 work, and didn't see the damn thing until I found myself stuck astride it. Took a bunch of men inc a commando type guy to disengage my car from it. I wonder who thought it would be a good idea to simply block the entrances with foot high dividers that blur katak people like me would not see until it's too late... Tayar aru tukar lak tu... Needless to say, I scrapped my swim that day.

Now the project which I really must complete on time is having so many strange problems. I've been using Access for yonks with no problems whatsoever, but tonight, I couldn't import data from Excel due to whatever unknown reason and I couldn't program my form to calculate simple data. I couldn't even record decimal numbers... So now I'm back to traditional methods - use the calculator. Wish I hadn't wasted time setting up Access tadi... Well, to be fair, it NORMALLY does make my life easier... Excel pun banyak kali jam, cannot open... Apasal lak nih....?

Pseudo is acting strangely too. He's kind of whiny/ mengada/ merajuk?? Strange. He's never like that one... He's... MOPING... what? But, he's a CAT!! sabar ajelah...

Someone is having mega problems with her Mat Saleh hubby. So now I'm juggling my unfinished work and counselling at the same time. Talk about timing... damn! Signing off now. Hope things get better tomorrow. Tonight's screwed!!

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

The Spring is Silent

As you grow, you learn to give much, and expect little. You also learn that much comes back from different sources, in many different ways. And sometimes you realise that you have nothing left to give...

As Bilbo Baggins put it, “You feel stretched, taut; like butter scraped over too much bread.”

People take you for granted. They know that you will take care of yourself. They let you take over their share of responsibility. They think that your spirit will spring eternally forth without the need to be nurtured. They assume others are giving you what you need. They are wrong.

We didn’t ask repayment for what we gave; yet our spirit yearns for it. And when the spirit lacks nourishment, it begins to fade. What once was effortlessly given; now becomes a burden to us. Still they fail to understand, why our giving is no longer blessed with joy. Still they give nothing away. They stand there; unheedful, uncaring, unconcerned that the spring is running dry.

Let’s not forget that the spring does not come about on its own. It grows from collective droplets of the rain. Little drops that fall on the ground, seeps deep into the earth, trickles and gathers, gaining strength, until it finally emerges forth into the sunlight again, flowing, giving, nurturing.

The spring is silent. Without rain, there would be little for it to give. And without its healing waters, the most verdant forest would turn into desert…

~ Let not our hearts die, for then what other reason would be left for us to live?

Monday, August 22, 2005

Movie Attack...

Mz Picky-About-What-I-Watch is suddenly interested to watch 3 shows:-

1. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
2. Bewitched
3. Gol & Gincu

Since my birthday is fast approaching, figured if I can convince 3 bunches of my kakis to belanja, I can save RM30... RM33 including parking kalau ada orang pickup. Ceh... kedekut ke hapa?? More like broke after buying the new lappie yang tak habis2 bermasalah... Saba jelah... No la. Takkan I nak gi sesorang kot...

Actually kenot go this week pasal ada new project due on 30th. And I dare not dissappoint this old man, if not kenot get any more projects from him... So, peeps, anyone want to go catch the above next week? Please...? Pretty please with sugar on it...? With sugar and dusted with the ultimate Belgian chocolate...? You get my drift... 8-D

Friday, August 19, 2005

What to do when you’re sick…

Got some kind of bug yesterday, leaving me feeling queasy and bloated. This morning woke up feeling like I’ve been run over by a truck! As usual, my thought was – work at home. So I called in sick, but tried to work. Found that is was kind of difficult when you’re feverish and the only Panadol to be found in the house was some dodgy stuff I bought in Jakarta last December… Leaving home was out of the question. In the end decided to try out some home remedies that I’m familiar with.

1. Wear my hematite bracelet – in its own strange way, this stone bracelet helps you feel better. Don’t ask why.
2. Take 2 spoonfuls of Scott’s Emulsion (Orange) - I keep a bottle in the fridge specially for the times I’m feeling under the weather. Boosts immunity? Whateverlah.
3. Drink peppermint tea – for when plain water just won’t do.
4. Make ginger tea (air halia) – especially good to get rid of angin and warm you up. I kid you not.
5. Eat soupy stuff – in my case instant beehoon. Can la.
6. Last but not least – REST. Otherwise work slowly…

In any case, felt much better after doing the above. Figured I’d be hyper again by tomorrow. :-D

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

Zach, Hazami & Me

Took Zach for a checkup last Friday. He was given a clean bill of health. Yeay! Changed his tyres, fixed the alignment, gave him some V-Power and he was ready to roll!!

I took him for a long overdue road trip the next day. It was nice zooming along the highway and singing along to the radio. Zach handles like a babe, rock steady even while pushing 165… Oh yeah!! You gotta love that car :-D Hazami accompanied us - on the radio la…

Ku.. ingin bersama.. jelajah dunia…
Mencipta sebuah cerita judul kita…

Spent time with an old buddy down in Melaka, then proceeded further south; came back the next afternoon. Traffic really slowed down as we approached KL due to road hoggers on the fast lane. After Nilai the traffic was weaving in and out, trying to find some free-flow. The number of in-duh-viduals who don’t seem to understand the basics of using a multi-lane highway increased exponentially the closer we got to the big city. Sigh... lesen terbang ka? Thankfully there weren’t any accidents to contribute to the jam.

Got home safe & sound by 8.00 pm after a 3.5 hr trip. Hmm… that was fun! Gotta do it again sometime :-)

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Moving on With Life…

P had his 3rd convo yesterday. He says it’d be the last. Really, dear? Are you sure? :-p

Had to crawl in the six o’clock jam after work to catch him in his robes. As I dreaded, the place was chock full of people, and DTC is smack in the middle of the main road. Thankfully there was a designated parking lot nearby. Couldn’t get him on the phone, so I had to do the other thing I dreaded, eyeballing an ocean of people for one particular person. It’s like looking for a needle in a haystack. Good thing he’s tall and I knew what he’d be wearing, so I managed to spot him within a few minutes. He was obviously in demand, so I kept it relatively short. Snapped a photo, cadged a rose from his bouquet and took my leave.

Almost immediately, I found myself stuck on Jln Universiti. Darn, maybe I should have stuck around after all. But the crowd was driving me nuts! Ten years ago I would have laughed at the sight of a grad being tossed into the air. Now I worried he might be dropped and injure his back. Guess I changed. Comes with age, I think. I used to love convos. Bargains galore at the stalls, the happy faces, meeting graduated seniors again, … Now it’s just another event in a university. Been there, done that… twice. Enough la. But then, Chevening scholarships are up for grabs. Would love a chance to stay in the UK for a bit. Maybe there’s a short course that I’d care to attend… Hmm… we’ll see.