Wednesday, February 06, 2019

Why do I do this??

Learning Korean has been more difficult than I thought. There are so many different endings for basic words and it's hard to keep them straight. You can't go around spewing "saranghae"... they would think this ajumma has gone crazy!

I'm thankful when I get a breakthrough though. My understanding has improved somewhat, but speaking a proper sentence is still a challenge.

I'm still unsure how I can benefit from learning it, but insya Allah something would come up. I just need to be ready when the opportunity arises.

Furthermore, the market for BM-English translators is already saturated. A 3rd language would be really useful.

I'm learning other languages on Duolingo too, but I feel it's to basic. Repeating the same words over and over ad nauseam is not going to help me learn. It's ok for a start, but each language has tonbe supplemented with other learning channels as well. I use Google Translate a lot for this.

Well, hope I can improve my language capabilities soon. Hwaiting!!

Thursday, January 31, 2019

The struggle is real...

I came home at 2.30 a.m. today...

Have you ever felt that everything was working against you, and you were getting nowhere, fast?

Well, that's pretty much how I feel these days. Have been working long hours to pay my bills by the end of the week, but sometimes, you don't see much results at the end of the day!

Today I started work at 8 a.m. Delayed lunch until about 1.30 pm. Topped up petrol and tried to do something about the under inflated front tyres.  But all the pumps I went to were broken. One worked but I failed to check the specs in the car door, so missed the opportunity to inflate it to the correct pressure.

Due to this, the car didn't handle smoothly and my driving became iffy, which resulted in even lower ratings. It's at an all time low now :(

Dropped off passenger at KLIA just before 6 pm but realised later that there was a problem with payment. Trying to get it now via customer service. I'm really at her mercy now. Strangely I'm less worried about this than the car condition.

Discovered bald patches on the front tyres, so will have to change them tomorrow. It won't hurt to check the rest of the car either. I think the patching on the exhaust is coming loose. The damages are really affecting my ratings..

At 9.20 I got a job for KLIA1 to KLIA2. Cancelled that and the next job was Mitsui to KLIA. Cancelled that too and later found myself requeued. Damnit!

Do you think that's fair? I've waited 3 hours for a paying job to get out of KLIA and I get penalised for refusing to take short jobs that will result in me getting requeued  by the time I come back to LO. Manual accept - 25% commission. Any which way, driver kena.

I really wanted to leave after that. Nak tengok video pun tak selesa. Serba tak kena dalam kereta, ok. Called Shamila to whine. In the end tunggu jugak.

I ended up regretting that decision. By the time I got a fare, it was almost midnight. Maybe due to my current low rating, I waited a really long time before I got the call. Unfortunately, guy is a Singaporean going to Wangsa Maju. Missed a turn and took a long, long way through MRR2. At some point, blundered into a turnoff near Cheras and struggled to get back on track. It didn't help that the construction areas were badly lighted and my night vision seems to have become worse. At some point, we even had to go through an unlighted tunnel near Setiawangsa. It was quite an ordeal and took me over an hour to arrive at destination.

TBH, I was probably a little sleepy due to the late hour. So I had problems remembering words, recognising landmarks and identifying current locations. Everything looks so different late at night!

Managed to inflate the tyres properly at Caltex just before I got home. Lucky they had 2 air pumps because the first one had a leaky hose.

I have to do my follow up at KKM tomorrow, then sort out the car. After that I need to rest and work on the tour packages. I can't do Grab forever and the car maintenance is not cheap. God knows how I'm going to pay for new tyres... I need every cent to pay the AEON bill this week.

Have decided to increase my daily target. Achieved it today, technically. But with RM84+ not collected, I barely have anything to show for today's hard work. I need a break from driving tomorrow. Sad lah.

Thursday, January 24, 2019

Living Within Means

After about 3 months of being self-employed, I realise how difficult it is to get ahead if we don't save.

And there was news of close relatives who became a little insolvent despite their high income. Reason? Because their commitments exceeded their incomes...

I remember when I was earning a monthly salary, it didn't worry me much to spend using my credit card, because there would be money at the end of the month to pay the bills.

Now I save as much as I can make so that I would have enough to pay bills at the end of the week.

Lately, it's a bit hard to make ends meet, maybe because there's too many Grabbers on the road already. I need to set up my second income stream already...

Monday, December 31, 2018

Onward bound

It's 10 a.m. on the last day of 2018. The new computer is more or less set up. I have copied the image files that I want; installed LR and PS; and copied the Quran plus music files.

I should register for the Translator sites, but right now, my Jasmin photos are missing. I need to select photos for printing and display on the board. I promised Zairi I'd do it last week, but things got delayed. I'm glad I got this computer. It gives me the freedom to take care of things without worrying about Abah's files or K Ayu's crap. But with 3 machines recently used, it will take some work to sort out all my files.

It's a bit of a bummer to find that my monitor is much more damaged than it was a month ago. All that cat urine and moving around must have damaged the LCD cells. I could buy another second hand monitor, but I need to keep my spending in check until I earn more money. I have so much to catch up with in the freelancing department...

Well, we'll be one step ahead in the new year, right? Here's to a better 2019. Aameen!!

Sunday, December 30, 2018


I'm a bit worried, but it's a done deal... I got myself a new CPU to work on. Cost me RM1122 with 1TB hard drive and keyboard + mouse. Not exactly cheap, but I couldn't get a similar powered laptop any cheaper. This is like half the price...

It looks a bit funny, with fancy casing and all, but as long as it works fast, it will serve its purpose.

Why now? Because both Abah's laptop and my little tab are damnably slow. I do have the option of selling the tab, but it will probably be handy to carry around. Kak Ayu is always so anxious when I borrow the laptop. Takkan la I nak buang. As it is, I've spent so much money updating it!

I don't know why I'm going nuts like this... maybe because I've gotten nowhere with my writing and translation, or photo projects. AND I'm starting to not enjoy Grab driving. It felt so easy and natural in the beginning but now it feels more and more like a chore. Especially when I think about the damage done to the car...

It would probably be better to drive Grab on the side, 2-3 days a week instead of relying on it as the major income source. Being at the mercy of unknown passengers does get old after a while. I can't even plan for prayers, I don't know where I would be at any time. Even though it's a cash business, I can only put aside rm150 per day. Plus i spend too much on food when i drive around...

Oh well, let's see how it goes. Fingers crossed. Bismillahirrahmaanirrahiim...