Sunday, July 30, 2006

What Can I Do (The Corrs)

I haven't slept at all in days
It's been so long since we've talked
And I have been here many times
I just don't know what I'm doing wrong

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

There's only so much I can take
And I just got to let it go
And who knows I might feel better, yeah
If I don't try and I don't hope

What can I do to make you love me
What can I do to make you care
What can I say to make you feel this
What can I do to get you there

No more waiting, no more, aching...
No more fighting, no more, trying...

Maybe there's nothing more to say
And in a funny way I'm calm
Because the power is not mine
I'm just going to let it fly

What can I do to make you love me
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to make you care
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I say to make you feel this
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to get you there
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I do to make you love me
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to make you care
(What can I do to make you care)
What can I change to make you feel this
(What can I do to make you love me)
What can I do to get you there
(What can I do to make you care)

And love me... love me...

[Fade out]

Saturday, July 29, 2006


Am supposed to man a booth in Times Square this weekend. Don't really mind that, except for the fact that strong winds on Friday toppled the display boards over and destroyed them. AGAIN. Just days after being repaired. So I'm left with a table to display stuff on. As usual, the general public in Malaysia is not that interested in energy savings... So it becomes quite boring.

Since Times Sq has free internet access, took the opportunity to look for a conference to attend. I need to go by September to justify the cost to our project donors as project will end in February next year. Found it quite difficult to find a relevant conference to attend. Will attend one in KL next month, but yet to settle on one overseas... Have to skip US since they're so sticky about people entering their exalted state. Hrmph!

Also annoyed with a guy I met on Skype. Don't ordinary Malay guys (that excludes my friends) have anything better to do with their time other than wasting other people's time? He was trying to convince me that he wanted to get serious, and this morning a girl picked up his phone... Explain that, please. Fortunately I have learnt to take these guys with a bucket of salt. However, I do resent the amount of time and effort I spent being nice to him when he is already in another relationship. So much for trying to find new friends! Hah. I'll stick with my tested and true friends from now on, thank you very much. At least they are genuine, interesting, normal and have better things to do than lead people on.

Will now prepare emails to Risq & Wardi to arrange for a briefing in Melaka. After Maghrib.

Excuse moi... Je suis tres irrite.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Saya tiada simpati untuk anda

A gem from K Su...

Aku pun tak tau pasal apa aku seronok sangat baca cerita nih... Ha ha. Ngkorang yang paranoid sangat takut boroi tu, ambikla iktibar, ya? :-D

Azam (bukan nama sebenar)Doktor saya risau ni. Saya baru sebulan kahwin,
sakit kepala, sesak nafas, cepat lapar, saya takut badan saya semakin naik!
Saya; Siapa masak di rumah?
Azam : Isteri saya
Saya : dia kerja tak?
Azam : kerja
Saya: Siapa kemas rumah
Azam : isteri saya laaa
Saya: Sama sama kerja , tapi dia kena kemas rumah , dia kena masak,
belanja bersama, duit anda guna beli rokok dan kekedai kopi sebab dia
korbankan duit dia menunaikan tanggung jawab anda untuk nafkah keluarga.
Azam Tersengih.
Saya: mari saya periksa.....selepas periksa...Anda di sakit perut,
sebab mungkin tak biasa dengan masakkan yang pedas, sebab isteri masak
pedas, sesak nafas dan cepat lapar berpunca di situ dan mungkin juga
sakit kepada dari punca yang sama.
Azam: jadi saya tak boleh makan pedas sangat ya? Memang isteri saya
masak pedas!
Saya: Nanti bila dapat anak siapa jaga agaknya? Kalau anda takut gemuk
..sama-sama lah buat kerja rumah tu.....Rasul saw buat kerja rumah,
potong daging , jahit kasut sendiri....
Azam: tersengih lagi
Saya: ok ambil ubat di kaunter...kalau sakit lagi sebab tak tolong
isteri masak dan kemas rumah dan jadi gemok sebab itu, saya tak ada
simpati untuk anda!

by Dr Suriyakhatun Osman

K Su is a spiritual healer as well as doctor. You can read more about healing at

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Dr Lee Grismer’s Talk: Reptiles & Amphibians of the Seribuat Archipelago

Have not been joining any MNS activities or attended talks for quite a while now. Missed the Awana trip due to Reeza’s wedding, missed Yang Chong’s talk on bird calls due to what reason I cannot remember... With Chris mostly gone and Loretta busy with stuff, not to mention me working Saturdays and travelling on weekends, have hardly even gone birding this year.

Was lepaking with Sali on Sunday night – we watched Pirates of the Caribbean:Dead Man’s Chest – good stuff, go watch!

She brought up Dr Lee Grismer’s talk scheduled for the next day. I was interested, had heard a lot about the guy from Jeet and Chris. So in the end made it a date for Monday night. Had dinner with her in Amcorp and drove to MNS HQ after Maghrib.

Found the auditorium to be packed, a lot of unfamiliar people were there along with the regulars. As usual, according to Malaysian time, the talk started at 8.20 (it was scheduled at 8.00), but it was awesome! Dr Grismer knows his stuff, and he’s a great presenter. Not at all like the dry old perfessers of old.

Dr Lee Grismer is currently the Professor of Biology at La Sierra University, California and the Visiting Research Professor at LESTARI, Universiti Kebangsaan, Malaysia. He is the Adjunct Professor of Biology at the Department of Natural Sciences, Loma Linda University, and also at Centro de Investigaciones de Baja California Sur, Mexico. He is the Honorary Professor of Biology at Hainan Normal University, China, and Research Associate at San Diego Natural History Museum, California.

He spent 22 years doing island research in the Gulf of California, Mexico before starting a research program in Malaysia in 2001. He have also worked in South and Central America, Japan, China, and Cambodia, and northern Africa. He currently have approximately 150 scientific publications.

OK, that bit was cut & paste from his biography...

On the left is his home turf - deserts and on the right, his playground - verdant rainforests of Tioman. For the uninitiated, the Seribuat Archipelago is a series of 60 islands in the vicinity of Pulau Tioman, in the South China Sea.

Their research has found 14 new species, including 10 types of lizards, three varieties of snakes and a frog in the area. It is believed the richness of biodiversity was contributed from Borneo and Peninsular Malaysia, and further adaptations yielded new species.

Thinking only of my blog, couldn’t resist taking photos during the talk and got told off by Lorett. I plead guilty, your honour... So as not to waste what I had blinded people for, here are some of the slides that were shown that night.

The first is a mock-viper, a snake that defends itself by LOOKING like a poisonous viper. It's not, actually.

The next, a frog that is toxic. It killed his specimen-bag mates in a matter of minutes. Moral: Do not touch black frogs with yellow spots. (Hmm... it looks awfully like the one the boys put in my lap in Lentang in my student days... I WONDER...)

And the last, a new species. A blue pit-viper. Yup, the only blue viper in Asia. BEAUTIFUL, isn't it? And named after the org bunian, since they're supposed to be the guardians of the forest.

During the talk, Dr Grismer cited a lot of stories about the funny funny things that happened while in the field. He told about how new species climbed into their trap buckets, accidentally finding new species, toxic toads and stuff. You'll find stories of this kind common among field researchers - the best things are very often the result of LUCK. He also told of the idiosyncracies of each species he showed. He's a great storyteller... It made for a very interesting presentation. Not boring at all...

At the end of the day, the presentation was about passion, something crucial for scientists and field researchers. Camping out on site for days and weeks on end can be hard, walking and climbing long distances extremely tiring. Their prize - finding rare or new species, or crucial information that will help in conservation. Only a field biologist would describe a Mangrove Cat Snake (Boiga negriceps) as non-venomous and beautiful, even though it chewed on his thumb and made his arms swell for.. well, ONLY a couple of days. Yup, it’s a labor of love, all right, lots and lots of it!

Dr Grismer fielded the many questions afterwards expertly and encouraged people to do research and write-up their observations. He is more than just a hotshot expert, he’s a mentor. His excellent photos and interesting explanations can make anyone fall in love with the beautiful amphibians and reptiles, especially the lovely, lovely snakes. Glad he’s on our team...

Went back feeling glad I attended the talk. Almost wanted to come up with a research project to work on... Almost... except that I’m totally daunted by statistics and am a lazybutt to boot. So... maybe not la... :-p

Hmm... something just got postponed, so my weekend just opened up. Maybe should try to go out to FRIM this weekend :-)

Thursday, July 13, 2006

Goodbye, Simba...

Talk of the devil... My cats are my friends too...

My neighbour just came over and told me one of my white cats were hit by a car. I went over and found Simba lying by the side of the road. Pseudo and Leo were circling him, as if telling him to wake up... I took him into the garden and called K Ayu. Pseudo seemed to be scolding, calling out to him. For all their rivalry, there seems to be a bond among them that I don't usually see.

I'll miss seeing him in my rocking chair. The scaredy cat who is reluctant to share a bowl with Pseudo, or even enter the kitchen with the others present... He was born here 6 years ago. He is a part of the family...

Goodbye, Simba... May you be in a better place now...

The Value of Friendships

Sometimes we have a tendency to forget about others while dealing with our own trials and tribulations. Guess I’m guilty of that too...

When P told me his friend was in a coma, I didn’t realise how close they were until I read Marini’s blog. I felt her pain then. Maybe because she had just finished uni. That’s where I was most dependent on friends. Her entry touched deep inside me... I imagined what I would feel if I lost any one of my close friends... Alhamdulillah, so far I have been lucky in that aspect.

Friendships come in so many shapes and sizes – for lack of a better description. There are people you adore, mere acquaintances, people you love and respect, those you turn to, people you shamelessly flirt with... They come and go, but memories remain forever. Most of my friends in college have drifted apart, bogged by duties to families and careers, but there are rare jewels that remain with us no matter how far apart we are.

Suzi is one of my closest friends even though she lives far away in the Netherlands. Her pain is mine, and she knows of whatever I’m going through. Acik still keeps in touch, even if we meet only for movie sessions; and yes, Tekad. Sali – whom I met in 1986 and was not a part of my circle for years until recently. Inevitably, my friends become theirs and vice versa.

Some stay in the background, but the warmth shines through whenever we meet. Risq, Nadiah, K Zalina... My cronies in my Masters days. Wek, who quiettly follows my blog from Sabah and reminds me of all the nonsense I wrote every time we meet. Leave a message, la wei...

Of course, there are the beloved Tekadmons – Tuanku Putri Mawar Sakti, Naz, Jai, Cha’aint, Eyeda, Anang, Loly, and so on and so forth. My Darling D3Katians – Zura, Anaz, Inas, Cik Jee, Wong, Yuz. And we welcome their other halves along with them. (Funny but true – our approval of their other halves seem to carry a lot of weight. So beware!) The Ilham gang... Not to forget P, who somehow or other is recruited to play escort whenever I need one. Ye la, you’re an actor, right? Ha ha...

My ‘greenie’ friends – Chris, Loretta, Nisha, Lillian, Anuar, LiLi, Bernie, Jayamary, Jarina, Teck Wyn, Cindy, Surin... etc etc etc.

There are those who are my supports – K Jo, Reeza, P, Jay... Very, very important people to me. People who tell me the truth even though it hurts, people who kindly inform me that I’m being stupid, and still accept me as I am... Sometimes people fail to understand how much every one of them means to me. Some ask why I would attend Reeza’s wedding when he was the one i adored for so long? The answer is simple – because his happiness is important to me. And it applies to each and every one of you.

So friends, before it’s too late, let me beg your forgiveness for my wrongdoings, and let me tell you, from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU for being a part of me...

Tuesday, July 11, 2006


Oh how I wish you were mine
To love, to cherish and to hold
To watch you while you sleep
To hold your child in my arms

Oh how I wish I was yours
Sharing, caring, loving
Building a life together

So many wishes do come true
What about mine?

Monday, July 10, 2006

Running Around

Drove out to Kuantan yesterday morning to attend Reeza's wedding. Yup, same dude I was nuts about 2 years ago. Can't blame a guy for not choosing me, can you? He's a good bro and someone I can turn to when things overwhelm me...

Got to Ktn around noon and had a drink with Jayamary before going off to the wedding. It was a simple affair, and I didn't know anyone. It felt just... weird! Reeza was late. Nasib baik P was there to accompany me. Waited for the pengantin to arrive, said my congrats, took some photos and we were off.

P had to go meet his friends and Jaya had classes, so I had to 'bawak diri' in Megamall for the afternoon. Then Jaya picked me up around 6.30 and we went over to her place. Later we met up with Sufirah for dinner until ten when we had to go 'rescue' my car in Megamall. Started off home quite late and arrived in the wee hours to KL. Glad I didn't have to drive...

Now all that running around have got me off my feed again. Cheez... Just hope I don't get sick again... This is getting to be quite ridiculous!

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Tekad Pahang: Condensed

Dates: 1st & 2nd July 2006
Location: Politeknik Sultan Ahmad Shah, Pahang (PoliSAS)

Director: Poji Kun
Core team members: Yuz, Nue, Naza, Nasri, Merry, Ucop, Wardi, Oza
Buzzword: Alergik

No of coaches : 25, more or less
No of champions: 110

Best new module: Tekad Graviti

Hottest tunes: Viopipe (Butterfingers), Symphatique (Pink Martini)
Favourite pastime: Poco-poco (TQ Ayaz... :-) )
Aktiviti dalam bas : Dua ringgit, Tiga ringgit

Best acting: ???
Worst acting: Bet marah budak (ahahahahaa....)

Conclusion: BESTTT!!!

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Les Parole de "Je Ne Vais Pas Travailler"

Ma chambre a la forme d'une cage
Le soleil passe son bras par la fenêtre
Les chasseurs à ma porte
Comme les petits soldats
Qui veulent me prendre

Je ne veux pas travailler
Je ne veux pas déjeuner
Je veux seulement oublier
Et puis je fume

Déjà j'ai connu le parfum de l'amour
Un million de roses
N'embaumeraient pas autant
Maintenant une seule fleur
Dans mes entourages
Me rend malade

Je ne veux pas travailler
Je ne veux pas déjeuner
Je veux seulement oublier
Et puis je fume

Je ne suis pas fière de ça
Vie qui veut me tuer
C'est magnifique
Être sympathique
Mais je ne le connais jamais

Je ne veux pas travailler
Je ne veux pas déjeuner
Je veux seulement oublier
Et puis je fume

Je ne suis pas fière de ça
Vie qui veut me tuer
C'est magnifique
Être sympathique
Mais je ne le connais jamais

Je ne veux pas travailler
Je ne veux pas déjeuner
Je veux seulement oublier
Et puis je fume